Bah humbug.
Or maybe bah crumbug.
Whatever. I feel like crap.
Crap warmed over. Crap on a stick. Crap on toast. Crap crap crap crap crap!
I'm fairly certain I shouldn't hang out under where people are dangling pianos from a pulley. That's how crappy I feel.
And apparently how crappy my powers of conveying a mental impression are. See, if I were to stand under a dangling piano, I'm pretty sure it would FALL ON ME. That's how crappy everything is right now.
Sore throat. Headache all weekend and today, particularly if I turn my head just so (throb Throb THROB). Today I almost fell off/over my chair. I didn't fall on the floor, but the jolt as I fell onto the chair's seat hurt nearly as much. Now my back hurts too. And I think I have cramps. WTF?
whine Whine WHINE.
I don't feel like doing much of anything. Except sleeping and reading. I found this great new author over the past week (Nalini Singh, really like her Psy-Changeling series in particular) and really would rather read than do just about anything else.
Including eat, clean, exercise. Bathe. You know, the usual.
A sign of non-specific free-floating anxiety. Precursor to a big depressive episode.
Why?
Hmm, not totally sure.
But I will say, I would be a LOT happier if after four-plus years I could get a raise without having to go ask for one. It sucks to feel as if I'm the one who holds it all together/meets all the deadlines/does all the work and not be recognized in (almost) the slightest for it. I have to start working weekends again next week. There's just too much to do and I'm usually the only one who ends up doing it.
Le sigh.
I think I will book a massage this week. Maybe that will help rub the crap right out of me.
Cheers,
the CilleyGirl
Well Poo on that! Not sure what "that" is, but poo on it!!
ReplyDeleteI hope you feel better super duper soon, and I hope the people in charge of money pull their heads out of their asses and just give you the raise that you deserve!!
Bleah!!
ReplyDeleteSorry you're in "the craps", so to speak.
Ping me if you want to talk - seriously. I'm a very good listener.
And we need. to. go. for. a. nice. long. run.
Running cures everything. Didn't you know that?
What can you lose by 1) demanding the respect you deserve and 2) the reward you deserve (financial of course)?
ReplyDeleteYou have SKILLS. I mean serious, S.K.I.L.L.S. - your boss knows that, that is why he can dump everything on you, and then jet around the world knowing it's all safe in your hands.
Find somewhere else that will respect and PAY you for your skills and amazing work ethic.
Run, don't walk. Life is too short* to waste on people who do not value you - especially THAT much of your life.
*I hate the start of that sentence because it is SO CLICHE but I have yet to find a better alternative to those words and that truth. If you have one PLEASE let me know!!
xoxox