My headline was going to be "Hello, I have a brain tumor" but I really don't and I probably shouldn't even joke about those things lest all sorts of calamity befall me.
I kind of wish I have one, though. It would explain so much. It would solve so much.
I have a headache ALL THE TIME and I don't know why.
Okay, I know some of the why. I have sinus issues and I probably need the surgery to fix it. That's kind of like a brain tumor, right? Sinus infections can actually kill you -- I had a friend in high school who had lost a brother that way.
This probably explains why I'm avoiding getting that CT scan. I probably do have a brain tumor.
I'm also working too much and sleeping mostly not at all. Usually with the sleep I have problems falling asleep but once I'm out I'm out. Not lately, though; I feel as thought I'm only dozing and I wake up constantly. The only thing that works to keep me out is an Ambien with two Tylenol PM, but that's more like unconsciousness rather than a good night's sleep.
I didn't do the half marathon yesterday. I couldn't sleep, but my dog could. So much that she peed in the bed two or three times. Every time she moved I was paranoid she was peeing again and I'd start checking the bed again. At one point I was trying to move her and I hyperextended my knee against the cedar chest, which also did something weird to the hip that hasn't been bothering me lately. About five minutes before I was supposed to be getting up for the half marathon my stomach starting doing its best starfish impression and I felt the first twinges of a migraine coming up. I realized then that I haven't been looking forward to this half for quite a while and when running is no longer fun then what is the point? So shortly before 7:00 a.m. I took an Ambien and slept for eight hours.
I'm sad I missed out on the cool finisher's medal, but not that I didn't go do the run. Running had become a chore and that's not why I run.
I will almost certain be working every day between January 3rd and now except for Christmas day. It's too depressing to think about so I won't. I'll just do it. But in the meantime, have some eye candy on me:
Aka, my yummy latest obsession!